Inner conflict 

"He who desires health must first ask if he is ready to eliminate the causes of the disease. Only then can he be helped." Hippocrates

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There are often times when we want to do something so badly, but we just can’t seem to get it off the ground. There is a desire to run, create, do, but our feet are stuck to the ground and our hands are tied.  Every new year we promise ourselves to exercise, spend more time with ourselves or with our loved ones, to say more prayers or repeat more affirmations, but we are still stuck in the same place. We may want and desire something deeply, but if the idea that, for example, having money, being in a relationship, being thin, having perfect nails, etc. is unsafe, we will not be able to achieve our goal, no matter how hard we try, because we will be facing an inner conflict, and that is not God’s punishment or destiny. 

The same applies to illness, we may want to get well or for our children to be healthy, but if there is a scenario in our subconscious minds (which doesn’t understand jokes) that something we fear will happen when we are healthy, we will not be healthy. Is it bold and sinful to think that we can wish for illness? What kind of person would wish themselves or their child to be ill? No parent in their right mind would deliberately wish illness for their children, but if parents have unresolved childhood traumas or destructive beliefs, it could inadvertently or unwittingly lead to trouble. For example, a woman who wants to be a mother and a housewife but does not go to work faces a negative reaction from society, is seen as a loser, dependent, and is compared to other women who are more accomplished. Thus, a woman who is denied the shame and guilt of being a mother and a housewife chooses illness as a way out, just to avoid being judged by others.  

According to Lise Bourbeau, traditional medicine already acknowledges that about 75% of illnesses are psychosomatic, meaning that the cause of a physical ailment lies at an emotional or mental level. If this text has made you feel a tingle inside or sent shivers down your spine, I suggest you ask yourself a few questions posed by Lise Bourbeau, author of books on psychosomatics.  What things am I unable to do because of this disease? Who can’t I become because of this disease? If I could be whatever I want to be, what would happen in my life that would be terrible or unacceptable, and what would I appear to myself and others?

Once we have recognised how we may have caused or benefited from the illness, we need to forgive ourselves, because forgiveness is essential in order to move forward. Our ego may resist forgiveness, but we must realise that forgiveness equals liberation. Forgiving ourselves and others can help us heal.  

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